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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 04:22

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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I could never make a relationship work though!

I don,t even have a pension.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I took a video of my serve (60 FPS) and it took 0.4 seconds from my racket to the service line. How fast would you say my serve was?

When she asked me how she looked .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She married twice! .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

She was in good health!

Comes on , in middle age.

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Im still living with it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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I said to her

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

As i do to all so called friends.?

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I was seconnd youngest,

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But ive been too sick for many years..

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I think the readers, may guess!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

What did i know ?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I waited trembling.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

One cannot live in the past .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

So whats the point in blame.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We all went to grammer schools

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She found it foreign!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Was to survive, this bastard.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was very sick at this time too.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But, we were locked up after school.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My family never makes their pension either.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She wouldn,t have been !

Put me off passion for life!!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

(And it was in our own minds.)

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I write beautiful poetry .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My life is so biszare .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I have no regrets .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Would this be the day?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We were not on the streets..

Who then, do I blame.?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

It was going to be , some day.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

This is soul school!.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I couldn’t, believe it.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was 9 years of age.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And i lived it daily.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She loved him until the end.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Why did i forgive my father ?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But it wasn’t much.

He knew the spot.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was scared of men, in general

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Ive learnt so much.

So, i spoilt her more .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

All the time i was locked up.

Especially a lifetime of it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I will be 64.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I know ,a lot about trauma.